i'm all kinds of miserable

my financial aid would've been approved,

except for the small fact that they were OUT OF FUNDING.

which only proves tha t if you work hard,

and do all the right things you only get screwed over in the end.

i just want to sit here and cry over the fact that i'm having to give up all my dreams.

and once i finally take a second to not me sad, i can only feel resentment towards my parents.

i don't want to feel that towards them, but this is their fault.

we moved here 11 years ago, knowing we weren't going back,

so how can you not put a single dollar aside for my future?

i did my part, got all the good grades, all the right scores, got all the help i needed to get my things done, only to have it thrown in my face in the end that i can't have any of it.

had i known this, i could've been an idiot like all the other kids going to CCCC and saved my time by not bothering with school, act, or applications.

i just hate my life.