there's a new MAN in my life!

his name is Jeremy
he's 23
he treats me like a princess
he's a cancer (which is a mega plus in my book)
he's about to be a senior at UNT studying business law (yup he's smart!)
he's an only child like myself (which is a bummer in case i manage to one day reproduce with him lol)
he likes a lot of the same things i do
he thinks a lot like i do
did i mention he treats me like a princes??

that part i'm having a hard time getting used to though
what can i say, i'm used to a-holes!
it's a delightful change

funny that he came into my life right as my first love stuck me in the friend zone for life (to his credit, he has no idea i've been in love with him...but still! i was planning on telling him rather soon...super glad i didn't considering his choice of words)

as one door closes, another one really does open
(:

a little bit about what i do

i'm a secretary,
meaning i pretty much run this place
hahaha

no but really, i kinda do
if it weren't for me, my boss would still be losing his mind
(he's a very close family friend, so i know he was lol)

but here's kinda how my day goes:

• get to work at 8:30ish
• check the mail to see if any checks have come in
• get to the office, turn on lights & ac, sweep a little (somehow the floor is always covered in black dust!)
• water the bonsai if it's dry and set it outside for sun
• then if there were any checks in the mail, open them, stamp them, and fill out the deposit slip
• i then log on to the system, check and reply all necessary emails
• if a customer emailed saying something is wrong with their pool, i then call my boss so he can go out there and fix it
• i then add all the payments in the system
• and from there is all depends, i take phone calls from the other employees letting me know they need parts ordered or something repaired (which means i have to make a service order for our tech), i take customer calls, do payroll, and whatever tasks need to be done that day

i love it when i get here and i have a bunch of stuff to do
the day goes by fast and i keep busy
cause the slow days (usually fridays) i'm banging my head against my desk from boredom lol

and since i know jackie loves photos,
i took a few for her to see what the office looks like (:

click them to see it better!

Oh my goodness!

Hi! I promise I'm here still lol

This whole working thing is no joke!
However I'm so in love with my job
Nothing feels better than making your own money
&& taking a burden off of your parents
Mom & dad even say I'm getting all fancy cause I can go out whenever I please now
Omg it's so wonderful!
I love everyone I work with (:

It felt so awesome to open my own bank account and see my name on the card
Silly, I know, but still cool!
Oh and last Friday I paid my first adult bill
Ok it was a dentist bill, but still!!
Ahhh I'm going crazy haha

On another note...
I got another tattoo and can I just say, I love it so <3

The name of my blog is finding home, correct?

Well my all time favorite band that impacted my life as a teen and kinda molded how i turned out is Saosin, and they have a song called Finding Home

Well from day 1, I've been in love with that song

The line "the road goes and i am finding home in it" is part of the chorus,

And so relevant to my life

You know, brazil was my home,

But now texas is my home

And who knows if I will end up moving again and finding a new home?

So wherever the road takes me, I'll find home in it <3

It hurt, a lot!

But was pretty quick

&& so worth it!!

Iit's just now peeling,

So once it looks nice and pretty, I'll post a new photo

(: 

I have more to say but I'll save it for another post lol

I'm a working girl!

i am now a full time secretary!

i'm super excited

it's about time i start making my own money

((:

february recap

so here's all the craziness that has gone down this month:

• on the 4th i messaged an estranged friend because i missed. we then proceeded to make up and become friends again.
• on the 11th me, said friend (michelle) & my my dear matt all got to hang out together for the first time since we ended the 6th grade! isn't that crazy?! it'd been like 7 years since the 3 of us had all been in the same room at once. it was really fun! we had a great time at michelle's birthday
• on the 25th i turned 19! this birthday was a little different for me. it's hard to explain why...i was just really emotional. 19 isn't a big milestone, it's just 19. maybe it's the fact that this is my last year as an actual teen. i'm not sure but i had fun with my old & new friends (: i also received by far the sweetest letter (instead of a card) from Carrie with my cook book. she's not exactly one to show a lot of emotions but it was so heartfelt and sweet. brought tears to my eyes and made me feel loved.
• no exact date, but i made 3 new good friends in my culinary class! these girls are wonderful and very dear to me already.
  
• and lastly my old soul kicked in and i caught full blown baby fever! it's so crazy!! i'm 19 and have been ready to have a baby for almost a year now lol

valentine's day

i normally don't care about it,

whether i have a boyfriend or not.

but today kinda sucked.

lately i've just been craving love.

i want to be loved

and be in love.

and i'm not.

):

i just want my house back

we now have 3 people living with us...

every bedroom in the house is taken

along with bathrooms.

the first 3 weeks were fun,

now i need my space again.

someone give me my house back?

):

bookworm

did you know i have a book obsession?

cause i do.

i recently have read 2 books in 3 days...i'm that crazy lol

this past summer my godmom gave me a kindle for graduation, and boy have i put it to good use!

much like music, there's a ton of free books you can download online, and you bet i have.

well i'm now on a misson to get my kindle sold so i can buy the new one

isn't it pretty??

it's very much like an iPad, but it's main function is reading.

it has all the apps that i have on my iPhone available,

has internet (wifi & 3G)

you can add music

photos

netflix

oh and did i mention it's only $200?

mine is still new, i even have the receipt still

so hopefully i can get at least $90 from it and just pay the difference

i'm all excited for it cause i've had the chance to play on one since a friend of mine has it

:D

constant state of exhaustion

school is wearing me out!

i come home every day ready to pass out.

and on top of everything i don't get much alone time anymore

and to make it better gabriel's mom is moving back to the US so she's also moving in with us

the house is too full

i can't take it

i'm exhausted enough as it is

last thing i need is to be around people the whole time

i need my alone time

i kinda just wanna stay in my room crying for a few days

my parents need to start thinking how all of this effects me

not to mention that i have to clean up after all these people (and they do take advantage of that)

things need to get better

things with my parents are only getting worse with each day.

if they don't realize how they treat me soon, i'm going to explode.

i can sit here and honestly say that i love them ONLY because they are my parents and gave me life.

but as humans, i hate them with every ounce of my body.

i keep saying if things keep this way, once i move out i'm never coming back.

they don't ever let me be happy.

if they see i'm happy or proud of myself they find something to put me down.

i honestly hate my home life.

growing family

nope no one is pregnant

but my "brother" and his wife have moved in with us

there is a woman named Linda, and she was one of the first people my family met when we moved to the US. shortly after we met her, not only did she become an instant family friend but her sons were making their way to the US too. her youngest, Gabriel, was 13 and her oldest, Flavio, was maybe 18 (i don't really remember). for whatever reason gabriel really clicked with my family. during school vacations he'd stay at my house and stay over every weekend. we acted like siblings.

well him and his wife have to go spend a few months in brazil, so until then they have moved in with us to try and save money.

at first i thought it was gonna be a bad idea, but it's turning out really cool!

i'm getting to be close with him again, and also developing a really good friendship with Vanessa (his wife)

it's pretty darn fun!

me & gabriel on new years eve

me & vanessa 2 summers ago

writer's block

it seems like i haven't had much to talk about lately.

and if anything has gone on that i haven't blogged about, it's simply because it's too personal (even for me)

so my poor blog has just been sitting here.

ummmmm........

i stood up to my mom yesterday.

but that wasn't anything major.

just told her that i'm a big girl, it's my body & if i wanna pierce it i will.

(which i am on monday btw)

now i just gotta tell my dad the same thing monday before i leave to do it

hahaha

but yeah...nothing.

semester ends on saturday, and then i'm off for a month.

yup.

i'm boring haha

just call me Chef Macedo

i just did my orientation for the culinary program and loved it!

i'm sooooo excited for next semester (:

one thing that did annoy me though was the fact that i'm already ServSafe certified and yet still have to take the sanitation class (the purpose of it is to certify you but it's required)

i'm going to work on my patry degree first & then go on and do just normal culinary

the professors are great

the people are fun

the environment is awesome

but they do have some very strict rules /:

i'll have to wear a spacer in my nose once i start class

& give up wearing nail polish on the week days

small price to pay i guess

once i'm signed up for classes and have purchased my uniform i'll be sure to post a photo (:

there is a new boy in my life

who is actually good for me.

i'm just really excited!

:D

my name is Isabela & i am a shark

yup you heard me,

a shark.

now i say this because yesterday at about 11pm i realized i'm some kind of mutant.

i was eating some yummy chips and queso with the family and friends when i felt all of it gunked up in my teeth (yuck!); so i went to the bathroom to get it all cleaned up but i noticed a tortilla bit that was stuck to my left bottom gum, right behind my wisdom tooth.

now part as to why i am a bit of a mutant is that not only are all 4 of my wisdom teeth almost fully grown, but they actually ripped out when i was like in the fourth grade.

so i'm try to scrape this stupid tortilla bit off and i won't budge.

i feel around a bit more and i realize it's too hard to be a tortilla bit.

so i do the logical thing,

scream for my dad to come look at it

(hahaha that is how i solve quite a few problems around here)

and he confirmed what i thought,

I HAVE A TOOTH THAT RIPPED OUT BEHIND MY WISDOM TOOTH.

behind my stupid halfway-grown wisdom tooth!

-_______________-

so we're gonna start planning my surgery,

and i'm really scared

i don't wanna be out of it

i don't wanna be in pain

i don't wanna be swollen

i don't wanna not be able to eat

i don't wanna not be able to talk

i don't wanna be uncomfortable

plus i actually use my wisdom teeth when i eat,

so it'll be weird when they're gone.

like when i'm bored i make my tongue stretch out far back and run over my bottom ones...it's kinda fun

but soon they'll be gone cause i apparently have rows of teeth like some mutant human-shark

lol

you know what i love?

pumpkin pie

but i don't always like traditional pumpkin pie

so i made the delicious double-layer pumpkin pie

it's to die for!

i have an addiction

to chocolate!

omg i love it so

i'll eat it all at once

it's wonderful

i'm eating some now!

<333

i love cooking

therefore i will be majoring in culinary arts.

the decision is made and i'm not going to kill myself over it.

just gotta keep calm and cook

(:

idk what to do

college is kicking my butt...badly!

i'm dropping out of my science class because i made a 46 on my midterm.

i do really well on my psych quizes but got a 29 out of 50 on my midterm.

i'm thinking about going on to study culinary arts but can't find a decent school in my area that won't make me bankrupt and that will offer the only kind of financial aid i can apply for.

there's like 3 different career options i'd really like to do but i'm not sure which one to pursue.

i'm lost...like really really lost.

i wish life was easier.

i'm like 2 seconds from dropping out of college and just going to work.

i wish i wasn't so nice

it's my personality to want to help those i care about, even when they've done me wrong.

i wish i wasn't like that.
i feel like a sucker for it.