& we start over

has another year stared yet again?
has the cycle gone back to step 1 already?
am i ready for this?

most likely not.

2009 has to have been one of the worst years of my short 17 (almost!!) years of life.
it was a year filled with sadness, dissapointment, and lies.
if i could erase it from my life, i would.

will 2010 be the big year?
the year i do something meaningful?
the year something exciting happens in my life?
the year i get a boyfriend?

who knows.

i don't do resolutions because they never get acomplished.
i don't make wishes because they never come true.
& i'm not going to hope for anything because i won't set myself up for disapointment.

what i will do is:
work harder on my career
keep my grades exactly where they are
be a nicer person
work on my many issues
& not care what my parents think of me

now i know that last one was harsh, but it needs to happen.
if i keep letting what they think of me affect me, i'm only gonna go downhill from here.

so there you have it.
& i'm sorry this was such a long post.