change

change. it happens to everyone. we all change in one way or another. sometimes we change a lot. sometimes a little. and sometimes just enough. some of us hate change, while others love something new. change can bring us happiness. but sometimes it brings on sadness or dissapointment. some of us change drastically very fast. but some slowly change.

i've changed...a lot. but what do you do when someone you care about is changing slowly right in front of you? you can't stop that person because she's happy, but she's hurting you. she knows you too well & knows you're upset, but trusts you too much and believes you when you give her an excuse. what happens when you hate change, but you can't do a thing about it? what happens when you know things are going to change & you can't do anything about it? do you tell the person you don't like what they're becoming, or do you just adapt to the new them? but what if this new person & her new life don't want or need you in it, then what? do you move on or try to make it go back to how things used to be? why does change make people drift apart? why is change necessary?

unfortunately, i cna't answer any of these questions. i can only wonder & hope for the best.

but for 2009 i hope to change. i hope to become a less jealous person. i hope to learn how to control my anger & emotions. but most of all, i hope to become a better person.