Wednesday, October 22, 2008
second best
this is a feeling that will never leave my side. it's forever my companion.you'd think that after so many years, i'd be used to it. so not. i'm always second best to everyone. to my friends, to my grandma, & even my parents. i'm one of the babies on both sides of my family, and my grandmother favors my older cousins. i'm not "#1" to any of my friends, always 2 or 3. and of course, i come after to my parents. i think it's so messed up because they don't know if they're always going to be together, but no matter what i'm still theirs'! but i still come second. people see me as second in comparison to my friends, and that will never, ever change. god, why am i so inferior? why can't i be the best at something, anyhting. i can't even imagine how it'd be if i had siblings. i'd probably die. ugh, whatever. i'm goign to go sleep and be second best again tomorrow and every day until i die...
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isabela, giiiiirl i know you're a Christian, so imma just bomb this on ya :)
YOU, my dear friend, ARE number one to someone. and do you know who that is?
GOD.
forrreals. it may be hard to accept at times, i know it was for me, but it's true. you are God's number one girl. you are the beautifulest thing there is, you're the one & only isabela, there's no one out there that's like you.
He is our Father. He loves us so much. He cares about us a lot. And definitely, He cares about youuu a lot. So, don't be discouraged. Even though you maybe have felt to be second best for a looong time, one day, God'll send you someone that will make you feel number one in their life and you'll be SO FREAKIN HAPPY. it'll be worth all this wait :)
so, hold your head darling. wait for that moment when you'll be the number one of another. that day will be suhweeeeeet.
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