working hard?

or hardly working?

you be the judge ;]

(i'm supposed to be signing up for photo assignments but i'm playing on photobooth & listening to Saosin <3)

the worst day of my life

August 29, 2009
a piece of me died today.

do you know why?
the love of my life got married today.

people think i'm just a fan,
but i SWEAR it's more than just that.

the day i first saw him, i was in awe.
i feel short of breath & my heart beats faster when i see him.

i have been IN LOVE with him since i met him,
& that will never ever change.

March 02, 2007
the day i fell in love.

heck yes!

so i was assigned a 2-page feature for yearbook for this first deadline :]

i'm pretty excited actually

i get to shoot, design, & write everything for the feature

yay me

:D

i survived!

so...my first week of school as a junior is almost over.

my goddess this week went slow

class are ok

nothing TOO special

most teacher are nice

i have some pretty good people in my classes

i just can't wait for the 3-day weekend

hahaha

Ana!

i'm at one of my oldest friend's house right now.
she's just texting
& i'm listening to Designing Me <333

well...that's it!
:D

P.C. Cast

ok so pc is my ALL TIME favorite author. she's awesome, writes amazing books, & i was lucky enough to get to meet her & take a picture with her last spring break.

pc & her daughter, kristin, write the best series ever together. it's called the house of night series and it's the best books i ever read. it has to do with vampyres, some wiccan, & a lot of paganism. it was these books (& my friend's step mom) that helped me decide on a new religion when i knew i didn't want to be christian anymore but didn't know what to do or what to be.

(me, PC, & kristin--pc is signing one of my 6 books)

but pc did a Q&A on her blog and here's one of the questions that i loooooved her answer to:


2. QUESTION: Who is Zoey going to end up with? And when the heck is she going to settle down with one guy and be good?

P.C.'S ANSWER: Kristin and I don't know who Zoey is going to end up with because she doesn't know yet BECAUSE SHE'S NOT EVEN OLD ENOUGH TO VOTE, LET ALONE CHOOSE A PARTNER FOR LIFE! Jeesh. And give the girl a break. She can be interested in more than one guy. Girls are all the time - too many girls think they have to vow eternal love to some kid before they're of legal age. That's ridiculous. Dating is an interview process. Lots of guys need to be fired! And, yes, it goes the other way for guys, too. Zoey happens to be honest enough, with herself and her friends, to admit to liking more than one guy at a time. Besides that, you need to remember she's living in a matriarchal society where women are highly respected and valued, which means she shouldn't be judged as harshly for her boy issues as many of you are judging her because a lot of what she's doing is cultural for a High Priestess in the House of Night world.

Here's the bottom line about Zoey and guys - she has to be a mature, independent woman who knows herself and is okay with being alone BEFORE she chooses a life partner. That's impossible right now because she's only seventeen. That is, by-the-by, good advice for any young woman (or young man!).

I find it interesting and disturbing that Zoey gets called all sorts of names because of her boy issues. I think it's indicative of our society and the issues of inequality with which we still struggle, and it saddens me when young girls are so eager to take nasty swipes at Zoey, but think it's okay that Erik acts like a possessive jerk. Wow. Not cool at all.

1 week

left of my vacation...thank goddess!

i'm pretty darn ready for school again

it's gonna be one busy year :D

go redhawks!

dots!

is an awesome store!

i can't believe i didn't find this place sooner
it's cute & cheap & focuses on curvier girls
they sell sizes 0-24 & their jeans are separated by body types
mine are curvy' my mom's are basic :)

it's my new favorite place

i'm so going to hell

hahaha

ok so i'm not a christian anymore, but mom thinks that by going to church it'll bring her better luck with her business and get our situation back in order.
so we went yesterday...wow.

i have to sit there and tune everything out because i think it's all bs.

but i did miss my friends & our youth leader :]

ughhh

i'm tired of being trapped at home.
i'm tired of sneaking around.
i'm tired of being blocked out from the world.

SCHOOL NEEDS TO START SOON!
[yup, i'm counting the days; 18]

you know what's also pissing me off lately?
the fact that it's been over a month and people won't leave michael jackson alone!
the poor man has to be spinning in his grave from all this crap still going on

ummm...not sure what else to say...

oh!
i got a haircut (finally)
they took 6 INCHES off...i almost died!
but the place has 2 very cute guys...hehehe

well i better get off the computer :]

half truths

you'll never get away with one...so don't even try.

i got caught.

so now i have no trust or any form of privilege from my parents.
i'm disconnected from everything (shhh idk if i was allowed to keep my blog or not)
can't wait for school to start so i can see people again.

oh & don't send me emails on isamacedo_saosin_25@hotmail.com anymore
send them all to saosinchick_25@yahoo.com

thanks :]