as of today

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749 days
17980 hours
1078812 minutes

until i get away from these people i hate [:

cali here i come

i take back what i said

in one conversation that was less than 5 minutes, my dad reminded me why i don't make an effort to talk to him; he's an asshole.

no faith in me.
thinks i'm an idiot.
thinks i can't do anything right.

i'm just never good enough for him.

so fuck you, i'm counting the days until i leave this state with you behind.

rare

ok so this is going to sound terrible, but sometimes i seriously forget my dad lives here. like i'm not even joking.

you see, now that i'm a teen, i like my alone time...but apparently so do my parents!

let me tell you how a typical day works for me:
*7:00 - mom walks in my room to tell me to wake up
*7:20 - i actually get out of bed
*7:45 - i've finished getting ready
*8:10 - i'm done with breakfast & am having my coffee
*8:15 - we leave the house
*8:27ish - i get to school
*8:45 - bell rings for 1st period to start
*10:15 - 1st period ends
*10:22 - 2nd period starts
*12:00 - 2nd period ends
(if it's a B day, then i go straight to lunch)
*12:07 - 3rd period starts
(if it's an A day, then at 12:35 i go to lunch)
*2:18 - 3rd period ends
*2:25 - 4th period starts
*3:55 - day ends/go to bus
*4:20 - get home

then from here i walk in, drop my stuff off on the island counter, find my dad, say hi, kiss him on the cheek, find something to eat, grab my phone, go upstairs, pop my head in my mom's room, say hi, and stay in my room (with the door shut) for the rest of the day. i only come out to 1) get dinner. 2) use the restroom. 3) shower. and/or 4) say goodnight to my parents.

now what you didn't know is that while i'm locked in my room, my mom is also in hers watching her brazilian novelas & my dad is either doing something in the study or in the media room (down the hall from my room & right across from the master bedroom) watching tv too.

but you see, from time to time my mom will pop her head in my room to see what's up, then leaves me alone again. but my dad & i like barely even speak.

well sometimes we have a rare moment where i'm craving some daddy love...so what do i do? most of the time i'll just go into the media room and watch the discovery or history channel with him and we kinda talk then.

it kinda saddens me that my dad & i barely interact. i see how inseparateable alley & her dad are and can't help but wish i had that with my own father. especially since in 2 years i'll be leaving texas & my parents behind for 4+ years.

oh well.

happy mother's day

I just wanna wish a happy mother's day to all the moms out there.

Whether you're the mom of 1 kid, 5 kids, the mom of a mom, a mom to be, or (like me) the mom of a little puppy!

Either way moms are very special to us and we should show them the love they deserve.

Happy Mother's Day!

happy friday!

It's finally Friday and because of yesterday I woke up in an awesome mood!

I'm seriously having a good day. I hope everyone is too :D

Hopefully a fun weekend is coming my way [:

sparknotes love

How would I survive English II & it's amazingly boring books without sparknotes?

I'm pretty darn sure I wouldn't.

The last book we read was animal farm and I never read a single page & got a 97 on my test.

How? By reading the chapter summaries on sparknotes!

And now, I just took a quiz over chapters 1-11 of the book to kill a mockingbird and last period, after my chem test, I read those chapter summaries. & I believe I just aced that quiz.

So sparknotes, I thank you [:

sleepy head

It's 8:13 & I'm desparately wishing I was still in my amazing bed sleeping.

I think now that TAKS is over, my mind and body have checked out of school. They're just wanting me to stay home and sleep all day hahaha

I had a 3-day weekend and because of my mom's craziness I couldn't go anywhere, but I did sleep a lot.

I guess it wasn't enough though because I was tired yesterday (mom wouldn't let me sleep in past 12) and I'm half dead today.

A lot of schools are closing here in Dallas because of swine flu threats. 3 schools in plano are closed and more are probably going to close too. Someone in frisco needs to at least fake it so the school can spaz out and close. 2 weeks off for a little threat, does it get any better?

But knowing how greedy frisco is, a kid could be dying of swine flu and they wouldn't close the school. Ughhh I hate frisco sometimes so much.

Well I need to go & I could use a red bull really bad!

Have a good day everyone [:

swine paranoia

Omg! I'm like freaking out!

So I woke up this morning, and my throat was a little irritated. So I thought, after I eat, it'll get better. (this happens with me sometimes) but I had breakfast and am now sitting in my classroom and guess what?

MY THROAT FEELS WORSE!

What if I have swine flu?! Oh my god, the nurse did send 3 kids home yesterday... I can't have swine flu, I'm too young to die! Ahhhhhh!

I need to go to the nurse and see what he says. Oh wish me luck.