Tuesday, December 2, 2008
swedish movies...say what?!
hahaha so my music theory teacher introduced our class to this awesome independent swedish vampire film. & i believe i'll be seeing it this friday with my pal, Esther :] the only problem is...subtitles! gosh i hate them. i'm slow & they're too fast so i end up missing half of the dialogue lol. i have 3 days to learn swedish then =P it should be fun :D
Monday, December 1, 2008
It's So Simple
yes! i finally capitalized a title! hahaha but i don't think i've ever explained where my blog title actually came from. as you can tell from my blog "dedication. devotion. love. life." saosin is my passion. It's So Simple is one of their songs that i love the most. so i thought that today i'd post the lyrics to this song. enjoy :]
It's So Simple
Saosin
I never thought you would lose yourself
The hardest part was falling down again
(Have you had enough yet?)
I'm a fool to watch you walk away
Are you bothered by the choice you made?
When we fall to the ground
Slowly we're safe and sound
It's so simple to be afraid
It's so simple when you know who you are
It's so simple to be afraid
It's so simple when you know who you are
I caught you lying to yourself
Now everything is speeding 'round and around
(Things I used to love)
Well I'm a fool to watch but never say
Are you bothered by the choice you made?
When we fall to the ground
Slowly we're safe and sound
It's so simple to be afraid
It's so simple when you know who you are
It's so simple to be afraid
It's so simple when you know who you are
But maybe we were wrong.
When will you know
That you can feel belonged
I think you fell in deeper than you imagined
It's so simple to be afraid
(It's so simple)
It's so simple when you know who you are
It's so simple to be afraid
(It's so simple)
It's so simple when you know who you are
It's So Simple
Saosin
I never thought you would lose yourself
The hardest part was falling down again
(Have you had enough yet?)
I'm a fool to watch you walk away
Are you bothered by the choice you made?
When we fall to the ground
Slowly we're safe and sound
It's so simple to be afraid
It's so simple when you know who you are
It's so simple to be afraid
It's so simple when you know who you are
I caught you lying to yourself
Now everything is speeding 'round and around
(Things I used to love)
Well I'm a fool to watch but never say
Are you bothered by the choice you made?
When we fall to the ground
Slowly we're safe and sound
It's so simple to be afraid
It's so simple when you know who you are
It's so simple to be afraid
It's so simple when you know who you are
But maybe we were wrong.
When will you know
That you can feel belonged
I think you fell in deeper than you imagined
It's so simple to be afraid
(It's so simple)
It's so simple when you know who you are
It's so simple to be afraid
(It's so simple)
It's so simple when you know who you are
Thursday, November 27, 2008
phobia freak!
ok so there's this websie that lists hundreds of phobias with their formal name & what they mean. i have a lot of phobias & compussions, so i thought i'd list a few of them here! :D
Fear of:
Fear of:
- darkness
- heights
- insanity
- pain
- needles
- amnesia
- satying single
- bees
- imperfection
- being forgotten
- failure
- stairs
- depth
- amphibians
- being ridiculed
- confined spaces
- being locked in
- falling down stairs
- making decisions
- obkects at the right side of the body
- crossing bridges
- speaking in public
- hell
- blood
- the number 666
- bums
- going to the doctor
- insects
- solitude
- tornadoes & hurricanes
- childbirth
- punishment
- ants
- hospitals
- stan
- dependence on others
- being burried alive
- having a deformed child
- certain places and/or situations
- moving and/or making changes
- injections
- the color yellow
i hope i don't sound too paranoid hahahaha! well hopefully this entertained you for a bit. HAPPY TURKEY DAY! :D
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
dedication. devotion. love. life.
all these words add up to one very simple name, Saosin.
now, i understand that to them i'm simply just another fan, but to me they are so much more than just a band. you see when i'm feeling any kind of unwanted emotion, all i have to do to feel better is crank up the volume on my iPod and let Cove's voice, Beau's & Justin's guitars, Chris' bass, & Alex's drums sooth my feelings. never have i felt so strongly, so passionately about a band. never have i done whatever it took to be at their concert, to get a simple glance at them. i have gone to 5 of their concerts, and this past saturday it became 6.
saturday was a cloudy, cold day with a slight chance of rain. it was my first of 10 days of relaxation, and i was up at 7 am- sharp. i was out of the house by 8:30, out of ihop with my best friend by 9:30-10:00, & at a venue located in a horrible part of downtown dallas at 11:42. all of this so i could sit in the freezing cold for roughly 9 hours. all of this to see the people i love more than anything again after being away for 10 months.
i suffered in the bitter cold, i sat on hard concrete, fasted pretty much all day, stood through a crappy metal band & a crazy goo band that made the crowd around me make me want to cry in pain, all to start bawling tears of joy the minute they stepped on that stage. it was like time slowed down & all i saw was them right there in front of me, so close yet distanced by the baracades. their set was too short, too rushed, but enough to satisfy my need to see and hear them.
i was pulled out of the amazingly crowded pit, slammed my thigh on the baracade, limped out to the back of the venue to their bus, and bothered someone to have the guys come out. i talked to chris & justin, and then they went back in. i saw cove randomly walking by, but he eventually dissapeared. getting frustrated but staying determined, i saw cove again and asked if he could have beau & alex come out. because alex was in the shower, only beau came outside. the minute he stepped out of the bus, a huge smile appeared on his adorable face. he walked over and gave me th ebest hug i've had since october of last year. instead of the usual hi, signature, picture, & bye he actually stayed there for at least 30 mins having an actual indepth conversation with me. i felt so happy. he eventually had to go, but then out came mr.rodriguez. the biy that always hudes from us, the boy impossible to talk to, the biy who is such a sweetheart. i was so happy to get a chance to chat with him.
it was such an amazing experience, & i don't regret anything i did that day. i miss them already & am excited to see them again. i'm one devoted little girl, & i know they appreciate my support.
now, i understand that to them i'm simply just another fan, but to me they are so much more than just a band. you see when i'm feeling any kind of unwanted emotion, all i have to do to feel better is crank up the volume on my iPod and let Cove's voice, Beau's & Justin's guitars, Chris' bass, & Alex's drums sooth my feelings. never have i felt so strongly, so passionately about a band. never have i done whatever it took to be at their concert, to get a simple glance at them. i have gone to 5 of their concerts, and this past saturday it became 6.
saturday was a cloudy, cold day with a slight chance of rain. it was my first of 10 days of relaxation, and i was up at 7 am- sharp. i was out of the house by 8:30, out of ihop with my best friend by 9:30-10:00, & at a venue located in a horrible part of downtown dallas at 11:42. all of this so i could sit in the freezing cold for roughly 9 hours. all of this to see the people i love more than anything again after being away for 10 months.
i suffered in the bitter cold, i sat on hard concrete, fasted pretty much all day, stood through a crappy metal band & a crazy goo band that made the crowd around me make me want to cry in pain, all to start bawling tears of joy the minute they stepped on that stage. it was like time slowed down & all i saw was them right there in front of me, so close yet distanced by the baracades. their set was too short, too rushed, but enough to satisfy my need to see and hear them.
i was pulled out of the amazingly crowded pit, slammed my thigh on the baracade, limped out to the back of the venue to their bus, and bothered someone to have the guys come out. i talked to chris & justin, and then they went back in. i saw cove randomly walking by, but he eventually dissapeared. getting frustrated but staying determined, i saw cove again and asked if he could have beau & alex come out. because alex was in the shower, only beau came outside. the minute he stepped out of the bus, a huge smile appeared on his adorable face. he walked over and gave me th ebest hug i've had since october of last year. instead of the usual hi, signature, picture, & bye he actually stayed there for at least 30 mins having an actual indepth conversation with me. i felt so happy. he eventually had to go, but then out came mr.rodriguez. the biy that always hudes from us, the boy impossible to talk to, the biy who is such a sweetheart. i was so happy to get a chance to chat with him.
it was such an amazing experience, & i don't regret anything i did that day. i miss them already & am excited to see them again. i'm one devoted little girl, & i know they appreciate my support.
Friday, November 14, 2008
war
my body has officially declared war aginst me. during the summer i had a few stomach problems, but now it's getting crazy. i need to really watch what i eat now. but i'm in class right now about ready to die :[ i had to leave early yesterday because of the pain. ughhhhhhhhhhhh kill me!
Sunday, November 9, 2008
rules?
ok so i'm at church 3 times a week & i highly enjoy it. but in the past 2 weeks some of the things we've been discussing in bible study have been making me feel...disturbed. like i'm not a huge fan of organized religions, so the fact that sometimes they're saying that what's written in the bible MUST be followed really ticks me off.
let's start with me saying that i didn't grow up going to church, i didn't grow up in a very religious family. i started going to church only this summer actually.
so the first one that doesn't go well with me is the fact that in church they pretty much force it down your throat that you have to wait until you're married to have sex. now i'm not encouringing premarital sex, not at all. but never in my life was i told by anyone that i HAVE to wait. it's a personal decision i made, not to god, but to my fututre husband. it's quite different. i feel like if you have premarital sex the church pretty much shuns you for it. we are each individuals who make our own choices & mistakes. simple enough.
the second one is that christians sometimes are so high & mighty when it comes to other religions. although we may all believe in the same or similar god, they say if you dont' believe that jesus died for our sins, you're going to hell. i think that is so worng. although i'm very greatful that jesus died for me to live, i don't think it's right that the others will not go to heaven just for that.
and the most recent one- that was actually disscussed today- was that we shouldn't associate ourselves with nonbelievers. ok that one really made me mad. so now the church & bible get to decide who i can & can't be friends with or even date? i do not think so. it was just so frustrating to sit there for you know like an hour and a half and listen to Ryan say that we shouldn't associate with them because they'll bring us down and blah blah blah. but then he turns around and tells us a story of how a nonbeliever started going to church because she was dating a christian and how all of a sudden she dissapeared. when asked why she stoped going she said that from what she if that was what being a christian was, she didn't want to be part of it. so it's like we're just as bad. i don't know, i mean it just made me pretty angry.
well that's enough on my point of views. guys please don't come argue with me, this is what i think- not what i believe should be right.
let's start with me saying that i didn't grow up going to church, i didn't grow up in a very religious family. i started going to church only this summer actually.
so the first one that doesn't go well with me is the fact that in church they pretty much force it down your throat that you have to wait until you're married to have sex. now i'm not encouringing premarital sex, not at all. but never in my life was i told by anyone that i HAVE to wait. it's a personal decision i made, not to god, but to my fututre husband. it's quite different. i feel like if you have premarital sex the church pretty much shuns you for it. we are each individuals who make our own choices & mistakes. simple enough.
the second one is that christians sometimes are so high & mighty when it comes to other religions. although we may all believe in the same or similar god, they say if you dont' believe that jesus died for our sins, you're going to hell. i think that is so worng. although i'm very greatful that jesus died for me to live, i don't think it's right that the others will not go to heaven just for that.
and the most recent one- that was actually disscussed today- was that we shouldn't associate ourselves with nonbelievers. ok that one really made me mad. so now the church & bible get to decide who i can & can't be friends with or even date? i do not think so. it was just so frustrating to sit there for you know like an hour and a half and listen to Ryan say that we shouldn't associate with them because they'll bring us down and blah blah blah. but then he turns around and tells us a story of how a nonbeliever started going to church because she was dating a christian and how all of a sudden she dissapeared. when asked why she stoped going she said that from what she if that was what being a christian was, she didn't want to be part of it. so it's like we're just as bad. i don't know, i mean it just made me pretty angry.
well that's enough on my point of views. guys please don't come argue with me, this is what i think- not what i believe should be right.
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